How Quentin Coldwater’s Depression Saved Him

Quentin Coldwater provides one of the most honest perspectives on what it is like to have depression. For him, it goes beyond sadness. It is a sense of nothingness, emptiness, a disconnection from one’s inner being.  His battle is twice as difficult than that of usual fantasy protagonists, who are naturally self assured, brave and optimistic . Instead we have insecure, melancholy Quentin. A soon as he is done battling beasts on the outside, he must go on to fight those residing inside his mind.

In the first book,  he goes through a whirlwind of depressive episodes, each one unlocking a new realization. As a high school student, it signals a yearning for something extraordinary. When he graduates, it leads him to seek beyond the hedonistic pleasures. Following the death of Alice, he channels it into mastering spell craft.  He discovers being a magician is all about transforming  the victim mentality into one of empowerment that allows manipulation of reality.

“But you, my friends, you found another way: a way to use the pain. To burn it as fuel, for light and warmth. You have learned to break the world that has tried to break you.” read more